Emotionally – not so hot
Posted by lynnelibglamtwin on January 21, 2009
Definitely not one of my better weeks. I’m taking everything FAR too personally and get angry so quickly. I get upset if the girls aren’t quick enough to get dressed, I get angry at well-intentioned and accurate advice, I get angry if my suggestions are ignored or dismissed. I have this permanent knot of nerves extending down my torso that I cannot get rid of. I am NOT sleeping well.
Then I read blogs of others and I know how lucky I am. The Doctors gave me ID to a ‘beating the blues’ website that I’ve been on once, but given the main problem is no time to fit everything in, it’s just another stress! And I firmly believe this is only temporary. I am NOT depressed, I am stressed, anxious and worried. Yeah, me and the rest of the Country! A twee and silly website with questions and advice to fit yet MORE in to my life as ‘me time’.
In the meantime I just hope those of you who are close by can stick with me and dodge the bullets for now. I don’t mean it…
Tina said
You are right, it is temporary. It will pass. Mine did, eventually, after about 10 years of on and offing hell! Still get the odd extreme downer, but very, very rarely now. Mostly hormonally incurred these days (or lack of fag incurred, but I still am not smoking at work – yay me, I have cut down by over half and maintained it!).
Not really surprising consider the pressure you are under, how much you have on, how busy you are. The only surprising that you got to this extremely old age without suffering before! XX
lynnelibglamtwin said
Nice one you, near non-smoker that you are!
Red Baron said
Depression is a sliding scale and used very much as a catch all term. There is nothing to state it has to always be severe or always permanent. If you have episodes brought about by a succession of difficult emotional things it is highly likely your mind will sometimes need a break and if it doesn’t get it because life is always too busy it will force the issue. Episodic depression is often your mind’s way of telling you that you need to slow down and devote some time to this in order to be able to file it away.
You are likely not depressed, yet, but take this as your mind’s way of saying hold it Lynne, take your time on the important things and try to leave the cacky little daily ephemera to one side and not let it distract you from the bigger picture.